LOST IN THE MAIL

So, after writing a check to cover a bill today......I was kind of nervous. It meant only a few dollars left in our checking account. I thought, ok LORD.....the rest is up to you. We have several other bills to pay & no more check until payday. Then, I found a birthday card with a check in it. It's just the right amount to fill up my car with gas. Just when I think that's it & even start to second guess if that tithe money could have really helped us out.......God is ever faithful. I am reminded that all that I have is His & HE will provide.

Are we living our lives independently......relying only on ourselves? Or are we living dependently on God? These were questions that were posed last night during our church service. Could I give up the few things that I hold more precious than God? Yes, I admit.....I do, I do hold a few things closer.... that I have "knowingly" struggled with. Our pastor asked the mothers if we could give up our children. Boy, did he ever touch on a sensitive area?! I hold my family so tight...I could just about hug & squeeze them for eternity. I confessed this to my husband months ago. Motherhood has been a blessing, but in it......I struggle to keep the Lord first. I would die for my child. However, would I give up my precious redhead? I honestly don't know. Could I offer him up as Abraham offered Isaac? Could I? Would I?

I am reminded of a story I once heard from a preacher. He was recounting the testimony of a fellow minister. One day a man took his boat out for a sunny afternoon's leisure trip. He took his teenage son & his son's friend with him. While they were out, an afternoon storm rolled in & the waves started kicking up pretty hard. All three were knocked overboard. The man surfaced & was able to see his son & friend drifting out to sea & both struggling to keep afloat. In a moment of indecision, he decided to get his son's friend. He swam out & got him & took him to safety. However, before he could get to his son......he slipped beneath the surface & was never found. Later, when asked why did he choose the other boy first.....them being the same distance away.......the father replied that he knew he son was saved by the Lord Almighty & that he would see him again one day......and that he knew the opposite for the other boy. Years later, that young boy shared his testimony of how the Lord saved him from both the water & an eternal torment. That young man was the fellow minister that the preacher shared about.

This one......this one I want to say, "Yes LORD"......."Yes LORD"........Even this. All that I am is yours. All that I have is Yours. I covet your prayers. I want to be completely, every ounce of me......completely surrendered to our Most Holy God.